I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a loved one in death is such a difficult thing to cope with. My heart goes out to the family and friends of Ticoa during this time. Cherish the good memories. Please find comfort in knowing that God views death as an "enemy" and will act to end it forever (1st Cor 15:26). God's Word also promises a time in the future where we can all have a hope of seeing our dead loved ones again (John 5:28,29). A beautiful hope. Take care.
